John's Journey: Post 2

Everything you’ve ever wanted is on the other side of fear.
— George Addair

What makes me get out of bed on Mondays?  One word Accountability!

So I'm driving up to Tulsa to workout with Ashley Armstrong my friend and my trainer (Instag:ashleydarmstrong) every Monday morning and today I'm thinking about whats my motivation. 

People constantly ask me "why do you drive to Tulsa to workout?" My typical reply is something like "Because it makes me Happy!" Thats the truth! That's enough of me! But it really goes so much deeper than that.

What makes me motivated are actions and thoughts that scare me to death. I remember wanting to try things but in my head I would hear all the doubt and fear, so that would scare me. I would say  JB your not good at those things; JB-everyone is going to laugh at me;  JB-People will think I'm dumb! Not Disciplined...on and on the narrative in my head plays. So I come back to the words of George Addair, "Everything you've ever wanted is on the other side of fear."   

Being accountable = Motivation for me, so If I'm being accountable then I can travel to the other side of fear. The fear of not handling my health is a big motivator for me. I know that that I must keep my health and my body strong & my mind strong, so I do the work to get to the other side of fear. Kind of like writing these posts...this is something that scares me to death, I'm a little bit dyslexic, I skip words. I've been asked about my ADD all of my life. So sitting down and writing is something that scares me to death. So fearful, OMG people might know I'm not perfect...guess what? Everyone already knows that I'm not near perfect. To overcome this fear I just have to start writing, not worry about all the grammatical errors I will make, because I own them, also I'm not afraid to ask my friends, who I trust to look at my stuff and correct my mistakes as well as give me constructive critiques.

So being a bit broken is awesome! It allows me to see all of my beautiful imperfections and motivates me to be brave with myself. As Hemingway said "The world breaks everyone, and afterward, some are strong at the broken places", so my motivation is to be accountable & awake, accept my broken places and work towards strength and happiness, that is what I want out of #MondayMotivation.